When Ismália went crazy and the potential of being scum

Abstract

This text arises from the experience of a Specific Internship of the Psychology Course at the Federal University of Santa Maria carried out in the first semester of 2024 in a Psychosocial Care Center (CAPS). It proposes a dive into the narratives, memories and repetitions of the user mentioned here as Jesus (fictitious name chosen by himself), the main driver of this conversation. The text was supported by transcriptions of conversations that took place between Jesus and a former CAPS intern, with Jesus' reference professional at the service, but mainly by notes in the Field Diary produced and fed during this experience by the intern. Extended into 9 sections, this writing unfolds as a mapping of this experience, bringing considerations about madness and suffering. It suggests Jesus as the 'saddest boy' who chose life, but who ended up becoming, among other things, a symptom of the racist and capitalist inference of a society that seeks, always, to capture its vital manifestations in the circuit of disease, chronicity, delirium and mania. The text also shows that, in addition to the enclosure of narrative repetition, there is music and power in being scum. And that there is value in work that listens to the subtleties of living.